Life Down Wattle Lane v2 - Parkinson's & Moody Me

This post is a little personal but I feel I need to address, as not to upset those I love down the track, as my illness progresses.

Along with the usual challenges of Parkinson's I've started to notice that there has been an unintentional change in my personality/character and overall mood.

I whole heartedly apologies to anyone close to whom I might have come across cold, harsh, and just rude to. It's not me and I never wish to offend anyone.

I didn't realize my inner demons were showing outwards until a couple of people recently asked if they have upset me. 

For the record it's generally very hard to upset me, unless you are a complete idiot, but 2021 I am working hard to stay positive and I need to work harder to show that.

I do find that I do go a little into my own world which I am happy in and I can become obsessive with somethings. Sometimes I might need pulling out, but more often than not, I need to be left to myself to work through. But I will return.

If you want to learn a little more about Parkinson's to understand a little more... have a read of the below:

Parkinson’s disease is a progressive nervous system disorder that affects movement and results in such symptoms as tremors, slowness, stiffness, loss of balance and difficulty with speech and writing.

While it can’t be cured, its motor symptoms can be managed.

But sometimes the very medications that help control Parkinson’s physical symptoms can unmask — or even cause — behavioral, emotional or psychological problems.

Anxiety and depression

The most common symptoms experienced by people who have been diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease are anxiety and depression.

The patient is understandably anxious, fearful about how their lives will change in general and how functional impairment caused by the disease will manifest itself.

Depression, apathy and withdrawal from things a person previously enjoyed are another frequent symptom.

Anxiety and depression occur in about 40 percent to 50 percent of Parkinson’s patients at one time or another over the course of the disease.

Personality changes

Family members, friends and caregivers may notice changes in personality brought on by neurological changes in the brain because of Parkinson’s disease.

The changes can be varied. Examples include:

• A person who was always conscientious becomes careless
• A previously easy-going person becomes rigid and stubborn
• An outgoing social butterfly turns into a stay-at-home introvert

Impulsive or compulsive behaviors

Some Parkinson’s patients act impulsively, unable to control the desire to do certain things. This behavior can range from innocuous-seeming excessive Internet use to:

• Hoarding
• Charity donations
• Gambling
• Excessive eating or drinking
• Compulsive sexual preoccupations

These symptoms are typically caused by certain medications used for treatment of motor symptoms of Parkinson's disease. They may occur in up to 15 percent of patients who receive such medications. But they are most likely to occur in people who were predisposed to these conditions before diagnosis.

These behaviors can be quite destructive if, for example, a spouse is distressed by a loved one’s new obsession with pornography or neighbors become alarmed at the patient’s insistence on fixing their fences even after completing all the work.

Hallucinations

Parkinson’s patients can experience hallucinations that range from mild to severe, pleasant to frightening. Sometimes, patients describe the sensation of feeling a presence near them or of seeing something passing on the periphery of their vision. Others may be delighted by a vision of little children or flowers.

Sometimes the hallucinations are dark or upsetting. The patient may become alarmed at the sight of bugs on the floor, at sensing a stranger’s presence in the house or believing someone is stealing from them.

Parkinson’s patients have reported seeing human faces in clouds or a person in a coat that is hanging on a rack.

PS... I've not had any hallucinations yet, but I have some crazy dreams, so crazy I won't go back to sleep.